Went down a Sufjan -> Half-handed Cloud -> Danielson rabbit hole and just discovered
soundsfamilyre.bandcamp.com/album/wow-to-the-deadness
not sure why I was on the Sufjan to begin with, I have to emerge from the rabbit hole
More rabbit-hole internet crate-digging
planetclaire.bandcamp.com/album/st-vincent-planet-claire-session-2007-12-12
oh heck yeah old websites staying alive -- those tracks, downloadable
Alert: based on this old, broken, incomplete post, I may not have taken the photo. I can't remember or tell, as whatever photo this post linked to is gone, as is the Flickr user (I even tried the Wayback Machine)
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I sat down in front of the TV with my bowl and started watching Louis Theroux's new doc (thanks Netflix algo). I was only vaguely aware of the "manosphere" (despite the above subtoot) and I've only watched ~25% so far but I'm horrified. More b/c of the age and geographic reach of the subjects' fans/followers. I couldn't keep watching but will continue to bite off chunks. My main thought is my wife needs to watch this and we have to talk about it as it relates to our sons.
"Your phone is not a slot machine.
"It's a to-do list that writes itself...
"What if the exhaustion everybody feels isn't a moral failure but the completely rational response to being made responsible for an ecosystem of objects that never stop asking?"
"Nobody architected this. It accreted — one device, one app, one free trial at a time — into a system no competent engineer would have designed on purpose."
'She makes everything into a catastrophe, a moral disaster, she makes everything about billionaires, or the "death of creativity." She always has some reason why I can't ever feel safe any more. I visit her because I don't know what else to do. I don't have anyone. I see her once a week, and when I try to tell her how empty and alone I feel, she just starts ranting about the news. This week it was AI. It was you, Anthropic.'
I wrote this on day two. Now on day 4 after what can only be described as A Couple Bad Days, I am taking some notes here as I am back in bed and Don't Want To Move Again Today:
- Thursday was better than most days of the last two weeks. I noted the irony
- yesterday was truly awful and I am guessing it was due to my PT kicking my a** on Friday
- second half of today it started to get a little better
- I might have also gotten behind on my pain meds due to sleeping in. But also yay sleep?
- But also 84 days and I still have to be on multiple pain meds? That seems wrong. My doctor seems to have lost interest in me.
- The Depression is returning. I expected it sooner TBH. No exercise. Almost no time outside. Far less social interaction. Some of the excess sleep this weekend might be this.
- The small things my wife did for me were really valuable. Not having to make a trip down and up the stairs for everything. Gathering things like dishes and trash. Dishes and laundry...
- These things all require steps, a thing I have a limited quota of per day. The house is becoming a mess. I try to make a dent when I can.
- Showers etc also require steps from the quota. I'm pretty smelly at this point. Hoping I feel better in the morning.
- The Trouble Cat (the Siamese) has been extra trouble, adding to my struggles (and the mess)
- The crazy wind storm all day today has been an interesting outer metaphor for my inner environment. The house has been creaking...
Ok I checked a wind map and Iowa is basically being flattened right now?! I'm in a "it's fine" area according to this and I am shocked the electricity is still on and trees are hanging in there. It sounds like that hurricane just without the rain. Also God help you if you're on the Great Lakes, I guess?
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"I need your help. I think the internet is trying to kill me. You have to hire me, give me access to your server rooms. You have to help me destroy the internet."
'The first thing that happens when we arrive at The Kessler is we see Jeff Liles at the door, and his warm smile immediately reminds me I’m home. Every time I see him I’m reminded of the moment after Margot’s memorial, which was held at The Kessler, when we went to pay for our use of the venue, and he just shook his head “no”, his face full of authentic empathy.
'Last night he didn’t even check the list, he just said, “Welcome. It’s good to see you. Come in.”'
"Mike Caulfield is talking about fact checking and misinformation on the web, but this same perspective could be applied to the indieweb as well. As long as a certain few remain outside of walled gardens, we can inoculate the web as a whole against the various dangers of those ecosystems."
2018