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The In Progress column fills with tasks heavy with frustration, or requires more energy than my mind-body can muster. WIP limits are supposed to help one push through these obstacles but it fails to do so

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Been struggle-bussing all weekend. Slept plenty, took an iron (have been minorly anemic my whole life), still no luck. Then I remembered that on Friday I crashed after a week of caffeine and cortisol (I almost tooted a joke about it). Guess it takes more than two days to recover.

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"Sign consent forms for transfer of assets, likeness release, and training on real-time neural behavior.

"Note: Zoom’s privacy policy allows training only on conscious thoughts. Zoom remains committed to keeping subconscious data private for users."

pointsincase.com/articles/job-posting-zoom-meeting-recording-archive-technician-sept-3-2078-human-role

Job Posting: Zoom Meeting Recording Archive Technician (Sept 3, 2078, Human Role)
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Job Posting: Zoom Meeting Recording Archive Technician (Sept 3, 2078, Human Role)

Daily tasks include confirming server uptime, dusting intake fans, and fighting off rogue bots as moral sentience emerges.

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When I was going through a lot of personal drama in the mid-00s, I listened to The Innocence Mission a LOT. In the intervening years I've listened to them considerably less. But on this rainy morning, alone in a dark, quiet house normally bright and loud, my current music app of choice put them at the top of its recommendations. On this day of the performative rapture, I attempt to transcend.

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...music is coming from the houses
Or it sings inside me
I begin to mend
Oh happy, oh happy, the end
The end, the end

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daniel.industries/2025/09/20/copy-of-an-email-from-mike-riddell-2003/

Copy of an Email from Mike Riddell, 2003
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Copy of an Email from Mike Riddell, 2003

What I do know something about is constant suffering which you are forced to live with. You can drink yourself stupid, shout at the heavens, bang your head against the wall - but when you wake up in the morning the pain and loss is still there. And in the end there is nothing you can do except breathe - yeah, just carrying on living is a small act of resistance. At the risk of making it worse than it already is, it may be that you have to accept an ending. As awful as it is, it does have the effect of stemming the bleeding and allowing the long slow process of healing to start. I dunno, I don’t know what’s going on. But you have to survive - that’s the baseline. Which means making your way forward one day at a time. Do some work, any work. Write some music. Pain and art are good companions. Don’t hold your breath waiting to hear anything from God. But there may be the odd glimpse when your heart is crushed that you’re breathing your way into the core experience at the heart of it all - a combination of love and powerlessness.